I've been on a dual road of new age type followings and christianity for some years . I couldn't ' make my mind up and so keep feet in 2 camps .
I was never christened as a baby .
Since becoming more unwell I've had several ' Christian experiences and having done further work on letting my dad go ( emotionally ) was suddenly able to embrace ' god the father ' .
It came together that my path was clear and letting go of the new agey stuff came surprisingly easy.
I got baptised last wk end in my bedroom myself , my female minister and a friend . It was v sacred and special .
I feel so much better to be on the journey I'm on now ..
Much more held and greater faith .
I know my current situation is meant to be and I trust I am healing .
Surrender and acceptance with humility are great ..
After all I need a loving experience and a sureity that living in this body is only a part of the picture 🙏😊
I am in awe of your positivity. Today I have spent some time in tears, tired of the pains and discomfort in my body. Then I think of you, and think I should just get on with it already and continue to muddle through. Again I surrender, just like Emma rose. You received the CD in mystery, just as we receive the mystery of the greater force-God.
Hi Hal. I loved your story about the mysterious CD that moved you to tears! Thanks for sharing. I am sort of in the same boat as you. I was an Evangelical Christian for over 50 years when I started questioning my beliefs and realized those beliefs were no longer working for me. Since then I too am seeking, longing, yearning to figure out who and what God is. It is hard to go against the grain but I wouldn't go back for anything. There were good parts of what I left but far too much toxicity and so I still have a hard time embracing the good parts. I am a PK too! And I also have CFS. Thankfully not as bad as you. My true condolences! I love that in spite of all your limitations you are still doing your writing and podcasts. Thank you Hal! You inspire me! Sending you light, love and healing!
The best yet, Hal. You were raised to question, to seek, to long for……..Your dad would be proud to know you are living with uncertainty.
“And every once in a while, some minor miracle of insight and confidence, some serendipity with no explanation other than grace, renews us, and we are willing to relinquish our need to know the details. Instead, we trust that all will be well.”
I can relate to your history of questioning and cynicism regarding religion. After listening to the song at the end of your post, though, I can also relate to the emotion it elicited in you. It’s just plain beautiful music sung by a truly talented artist, and it made me cry! Thank you for introducing me to this. And thank you, as always, for starting my Saturday by allowing me a glimpse into your brain and heart. If only everyone did this kind of spiritual work; our world would be a kinder, safer place.
Wow, what a great story Hal. And I think that song you shared at the end, at least that snippet of it, is a cover of "Babylon" by David Gray, which is a beautiful song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zI_SBAkdKzc
I've been on a dual road of new age type followings and christianity for some years . I couldn't ' make my mind up and so keep feet in 2 camps .
I was never christened as a baby .
Since becoming more unwell I've had several ' Christian experiences and having done further work on letting my dad go ( emotionally ) was suddenly able to embrace ' god the father ' .
It came together that my path was clear and letting go of the new agey stuff came surprisingly easy.
I got baptised last wk end in my bedroom myself , my female minister and a friend . It was v sacred and special .
I feel so much better to be on the journey I'm on now ..
Much more held and greater faith .
I know my current situation is meant to be and I trust I am healing .
Surrender and acceptance with humility are great ..
After all I need a loving experience and a sureity that living in this body is only a part of the picture 🙏😊
I am in awe of your positivity. Today I have spent some time in tears, tired of the pains and discomfort in my body. Then I think of you, and think I should just get on with it already and continue to muddle through. Again I surrender, just like Emma rose. You received the CD in mystery, just as we receive the mystery of the greater force-God.
<3 "They say it's an inside job" :)
Hi Hal. I loved your story about the mysterious CD that moved you to tears! Thanks for sharing. I am sort of in the same boat as you. I was an Evangelical Christian for over 50 years when I started questioning my beliefs and realized those beliefs were no longer working for me. Since then I too am seeking, longing, yearning to figure out who and what God is. It is hard to go against the grain but I wouldn't go back for anything. There were good parts of what I left but far too much toxicity and so I still have a hard time embracing the good parts. I am a PK too! And I also have CFS. Thankfully not as bad as you. My true condolences! I love that in spite of all your limitations you are still doing your writing and podcasts. Thank you Hal! You inspire me! Sending you light, love and healing!
The best yet, Hal. You were raised to question, to seek, to long for……..Your dad would be proud to know you are living with uncertainty.
“And every once in a while, some minor miracle of insight and confidence, some serendipity with no explanation other than grace, renews us, and we are willing to relinquish our need to know the details. Instead, we trust that all will be well.”
I can relate to your history of questioning and cynicism regarding religion. After listening to the song at the end of your post, though, I can also relate to the emotion it elicited in you. It’s just plain beautiful music sung by a truly talented artist, and it made me cry! Thank you for introducing me to this. And thank you, as always, for starting my Saturday by allowing me a glimpse into your brain and heart. If only everyone did this kind of spiritual work; our world would be a kinder, safer place.
Wow, what a great story Hal. And I think that song you shared at the end, at least that snippet of it, is a cover of "Babylon" by David Gray, which is a beautiful song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zI_SBAkdKzc
I had to go back and find the music shared. How lovely, emotional and spiritual. I shared in your tears-